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| Life is fucking rough right now. I doubt any of you guys are going to ever see this. I forgot about this myself. I don't even know what to do with myself right now. The only thing keeping me focused is thoughts of her, and the idea that I may have found my profession. Those two things are the only thing keeping me tied to this world as it is. | | |
| wish you guys were here. drinking by my side. so much has swept through my fingers... time, friends, love...
be cool to just sit, talk, and drink some cold beer.
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| do me a favor.
if your going or gone back to the pei, find out the truth for me.
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| these past two months, since i've been away from taiwan... i've slept
like complete ass. an hour at most, if i'm lucky. every
time i lay down to fucking sleep, everything and nothing comes pouring
into my skull. i think about life, i think about us, i think
about everything... yet nothingness. It's all in the past... does
it make it nothingness. everyday that passes... i forget more and
more what everyone in my life looks like. i fucking feel like im
shrinking in this world. it's too fucking early for a mid-life
crisis... i mean, i do feel like im fucking 65 already... i walk the
streets and i see everyone else with their friends. and i look
down at the floor... see only my red and white addidas striding the
floor... not the damn k-swizzles next to my feet... not the vans on the
other side... not the boots... not anything... i've lost all
hope.
the hard part is... when i see everyone in my life online... on msn and
shit... it's ten times harder talking to them. there is no
emotion left... there is no laughter left.
each passing day i die more than just a little... or it is my thoughts
that hurt me more than just a little. laying on the floor staring
at the ceiling... my mind starts pealing... what do i do... what do i
do?
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| Shit has been hitting the royal fan guys. I thought things were so perfect, but they have taken the turn for more than the worst. I don't think we'll be together much longer, and it's killing me. We're letting the stupidest things tear us apart, and I don't know why. I need some fucking help here guys. A brother is killing himself over this. Help me. | | |
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